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How’s a boy supposed to grow up without a mother to raise him
A single parent ain't enough, I know, I grew up impoverished
How is one man supposed to provide, and raise a son with discipline
I'll tell you one thing my mom did not, and I'm a failure for it
I hate what she's put in him, the way he's soft and pudgy
She hasn't changed one little bit
My son's a young me

I just want to raise my boy right (x16)

I remember how hard it was to grow up
I just want to be the person he can talk to
I may have had less tech when I when I was his age
I just want him to feel like, feel like he's got a father and a...

...Mother

Mom's always expressing her concern
About the way I live my life
So what if I'm caught up in my work
It's why I'll be happy

It doesn't matter where the talking starts
She always makes it end the same way
Her soft sell makes it that much worse
When she finally reveals her hand

and When she talks about her moral mindset
I want to fucking shoot her
Is that the same mindset,
that left us without meals

And I may not be overly happy now,
But at least I can work towards tangible goals,
Unlike your Buddhist bullshit,
I know in the end I'll be happy,

Sure I get distracted by inane shit,
But I don't really care who is right,
I've said it every possible way,
Stop telling me you've heard and listen

I don't know what constitutes love,
and I know I don't have to like my mother to love her,
and I guess I'm still housing her and feeding her and letting her talk to hear grandkids- yeah
But at this point all I have is the assumption, the assumption I love my...

...Mother

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from I'll Die Before the Rest of me Changes, released January 27, 2022
Song Writing, Lyrics, Performance, Sound Engineering, Production, Mixing and Mastering: Nathaniel Philip Havens

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